Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The Questions

Being a mother of three now teenagers, I had to go through the terrible twos and the wonderful four - teens. Don't worry if you haven't been through this will! What I remember most about my children is that they ask tons of questions, especially Sydney (even now at 14 she is full of whys and what fors). If you've been through these stages you know that children can ask all sorts of questions about things you would never begin to think they could ask. The classic why is the sky blue? I don't think a parent yet could logically answer that for a 4 year old and when we did answer 'because it reflects the color of the oceans' (right!) they ask........why is the water blue? So back to square one you go. Where does the color in crayons come from? Why do the trees loose their leaves and what makes them green in the summer? What if the sun doesn't come out will the trees and grass die? You think of it they can out think you!!
It's the same for me being a new and growing believer in Christ. I have a lot of questions beginning with WHY? WHEN? HOW LONG? WHAT NOW? Prior to being a believer, and that wasn't all that long ago, I was stuck on the fact that there was no way the Ark existed. Christians could "possibly see" (by satelite) it comfortably placed in the nether regions of Turkey mountains where no one could get to it. There was no 'proof' that Christ ever walked on this earth so why should I believe that he actually existed. And why exactly do we all speak different languages, have different skin color, and different traditions!!! WHY, WHY, WHY? Well no one for the longest time could answer these questions. I was continually getting the "because that's the way it is"...or..."because God says so in his word", no one could actually show me where to believe but by golly it was there!!!
Today as a full believer and struggling walker with Christ, I find that the questions are still there, I just don't worry about them. I ask them continually but I am asking God now and not man, and if I do ask 'man' then I get a direct full supported answer...not 'because'. (I always thought of my mother with the 'because I said so' not a very good response.) This week God opened a door for me to share His love, forgiveness, kindness, mercy, etc, etc, etc, with an old friend. And when that door was partially cracked, I was excited, now that door is fully open and I am afraid as to what to say or how to lead this friend toward and not away. So the questions of How? came crashing back. This morning I was looking for a scripture that I know but don't know where it is "I am the way the truth and the light, no one comes to the Father except through Me." I couldn't find that but I did find a lot more. From John 4- John 9, Jesus continually testifies of himself to others who don't believe him and several times throughout these passages Jesus tells those listening that they do not believe him because they do not believe the Father. That's powerful. People were listening and seeing Jesus, had been handed down and told of the prophesies of his coming and stilll did nto believe he was sent by God and of himself. They didn't believe any of his words because they didn't believe truly in God as the Father. In John 6:44 Jesus says 'no one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him.....' Further yet, in John 8:442-47, Jesus tells that the reason that they didn't know God's calling and didn't believe in him was due to the lies that the devil had placed in their hearts and minds. Aha Moment!! That's the answer to the whys! All the questions that I had as an unbeliever is right there in John 4 - John 9. I didn't believe because I wasn't listening, I couldn't hear God calling me through the lies that I was living that the enemy had filled up in my life. Lies of the whys, who says, can you prove it, and on and on and on.
Do I still have some questions for God, absolutely! I believe now more than ever that those questions are meant for me to hear from Him directly, when I don't know but He does. For now, I dig and read His Words, pray for answers and direction, and wait for Him to guide (not very good at this part yet). "I am the way the truth and the light, no one comes to the Father except through me." That's enough for me. I'm still pressing forward but as long as I keep Christ in front of me, leading the way, those questions get answered by faith and truth. So why are you waiting? What are you waiting for?


Tori said...

Thanks for sharing this! I love the wisdom God imparts to his followers and the courage that moves them to share it!