Quicker Than Expected

Quicker than expected as life contracts and goes by
Sitting on this couch watching the days ebb more quickly than a foxes sly
Quicker than expected this life will not give even a bit
And I struggle it into focus and force it to fit.
Quicker than expected I became a mom and wife
Working thru growing pains with more than just strife
Quicker than expected I lost the between control and peace
Huddling in the corners of my mind looking for a release.
Quicker than expected the tides of time withdrew
And now I find myself in this place and looking for You.

I've been looking for something and truthfully I think I lost it many, many years ago (no not my mind!). I was looking for scriptures on stuff that happened quickly and I found a lot of them but not any that 'spoke' to me. This morning I was looking for something for my daughter and, on what I call a fluke, I typed in "restore" and found the something I was looking for.
1Peter 5:10 "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make strong, firm and steadfast."
I've been struggling with 'finding' God again - I know how crazy that sounds but its a true statement. And it seems as though when I am 'searching' He is nowhere to be found. When I came across 1Peter 5:10 the words told me a story, I know crazy that one sentence can hold a story but it does and here it is. I was 'called' believe it or not, out of the life that I was in up until I was 36, by God and things were great, things were unbelievably great. I was walking in a full forest with a clear single path - finding the way cleanly and without trouble. Then the forest dwindled away and a hard harsh land was revealed to me. The ground - cracked and dry and the path lead for a short time and now is gone from sight. Now for a little while, I am going thru a suffering that I'm struggling thru and looking for something to get me thru this time. The path is gone and the desert that was once flat has produced sand dunes to climb and struggle over still with no path. And I search for something that I thought was very close to me and now I am finding has eluded me. But I hope - somewhere in the future- He will restore my path and the desert will disappear. I don't know when I don't know how but I hope. Because right now even tho the desert and sand dunes seem long and drawn out, in His eyes it is for just a little while and He will restore me to a path maybe not with trees and full of flowers but a hopeful path - someday I will not be in the unpathed desert. See I told you that one sentence had a story - and I bet you didn't believe me. I'm not liking this plan not one bit or even milli-bit and yet here I am right in the midst of it, quicker than expected.