Trust Me

Kind of an odd statement for a blogspot isn't it...trust me. It means so many things today and can me an array of other things. Trust me. Those words don't always sound inviting do they. They seem carry us away at first. Trust me. Then with age and life filling our heads those words could mean sarcasism and generally do in today's language. Those two simple words can have a different affect on you when you hear them, how you hear them, and who is saying them.
We, as humans, learn "trust" as an action. We take our parent's hand to go somewhere, we get into cars with our newly licensed teenage friends (sometimes when neither of us should be driving), we give our hearts to someone special, and we return the cycle with our children. Action, and we learn it. But we also hear it, not just in the way people protect us or we them, but in the way that we use it every day. "Trust me", with a little hint of sarcasism behind it. Jokingly used with friends, or seriously used with enemies. "Trust me" a plea in hiding for someone to love us, even though in reality we are running from them. "Trust me" a confident statement made to relieve the pressure of responsibility, a friendship that helps instead of hinders. "Trust me."
I believe these two little, one syllable words mean something different when God speaks them, or puts them into action. Jesus sais "Do not let your hearts be troubled, put your trust in God and trust also in me." How exactly do I do that? What am I suppose to trust? More importantly, Why? That's really what it comes down to, Why? I had to put my trust in God this week and do somethig that He'd actually been telling me to do for over a year. It's amazing how many things get in the way when God speaks. Above all, me (or you as it may be)! This week I broke a generational stronghold on my life. I gave up the finance part of my marriage to my husband. I didn't know that it was a generational stronghold until earlier this week when Lee sent me a daily devotional about generational strongholds. It was very clear after reading this half page devotional that I was caught in a stronghold. Let me just say that this was not the easiest thing in the world to do, I mean I've been delaying, making excuses, avoiding, and hiding from this issue for over a year. I think, on a personal level, I did a great job of getting away from what I was suppose to do. The problem is that things never really straightened out for me. I had plans to clean up the problem that I had created and the problem just got worse. Even more so, God was giving me the ole glare from afar. You know the one I mean, the one your mother gives you when all she has to do is look at you and you know that you are wrong...that look! I didn't literally see it but in my every day time with God, the words "trust me" kept coming up. To the point that when I was reading just flipping through the bible places where I stopped were about trusting God. So on Saturday morning, I laid down beside Lee and handed him the checkbook and my debit card.....talk about hard! I was okay at first but everything was still within reach, but then Lee left and gave me the checkbook to go get horse feed. The very first thing I did was looked for my debit card (when I gave it to him he put it in the checkbook). To my disappointment, it wasn't there. Lee left and I had an anxiety attack!! I had nothing to do but pray and ask God for strength to get through this part and time in my life. I'm still having a little bit of problems with it (of course it's only been 1 day) but I find myself not concerned with what is happening with the account. Lee has it under control, and God has my life under control. Don't be misled, the enemy is still at the door and I can come up with 900 reasons and ways to use our money anyway I can. And when those times arise I just stop doing what I am doing and ask for God's strength for me to trust Him.
This is what we are suppose to do. This is what we are here for, to find (seek), to trust and to do what God has planned for us. As hard as it is, and as far fetched as it is, our human mind can not wrap itself around this part of our life. Mostly because our life on earth is filled with human desires and wants-ones that the enemy helps plant and start. It's our spirit's desire to be closer to God, it's our soul and mind that we live by and fight every day.
But somewhere between what we want and what we long for, God gets in. I don't know how and I don't know where He does it but He does. I believe He's waiting for the perfect time to show me (and you) He and He alone can be trusted. This is that time, the time for me to put all of my fear, concerns, hurts, in Him and Trust only Him.