Not Sure?

Have you ever had any doubt about any one thing? Had concerns that the thing you were concerned about was going to get worse or...better? I feel that way a lot of the time and most of the time I just struggle with sleep, struggle with focus, and struggle with what to do or who to talk to about the concern. Most of the time, and I say this without hesitation, I don't do anything, I fight with the doubt, get angry, snappy, short, etc, and then bury it under the the surface of my life. Ok probably not the best solution but it has been the solution.
This week, I was faced with something that I hope Lee and I handled correctly. Our son, Kaleb, asked to bring a friend home to live with us. At first I hesitated and then said yes for a couple of days. I prayed about this situation, this young woman, girl really, has made horrible life altering decisions and has created more and more problems in her family life that have been expontentially compounded. In silence I was praying for confirmation and direction from God, waiting for some amazing sign from Him that said "DO THIS!!!" Well that didn't exactly happen, actually that didn't happen at all. What did happen was for three days, at different times during those days, I recalled the scriptures about taking care of widows and orphans. Now I couldn't begin to tell you where that scripture is, have no idea what how to find it (besides a search engine on the internet), and don't know all the context of this scripture. And, to add to that insecurity, this young woman isn't technically an orphan; she's 18, legally an adult! So now what...How did I feel about this concern that entered into our family life. I asked everyone I feel close to, to pray for us and our decision to allow her to live with us and to resolve her relationship with her parents.
Today, we met with her and her parents in our home for what Lee and I had hoped to be a resolving beginning. What we thought was incorrect. What we learned was that we had a very angry couple in our home and they had very little good to say about this child that was sitting in our living room. DOUBT!! Great, I began to doubt our decision, I began to worry about our decision to allow her to move into our home and into our life. DOUBT. In the chair across from me, Lee's body language represented - anger, distrust, misbelief -what was the outcome going to be..DOUBT. The "meeting" ended with her mother leaving and not looking to find an agreement with getting this young girl to a place of stability, while her stepfather, agreed that she was in a safe environment and where they knew where she was and what was happening. But yet doubt lingered in my mind.
Things quickly changed when Lee said that he was getting p**&&^$ about the past things that were being once again thrown in the the arena instead of what needed to happen to make things move in a more forward direction. Not what I was expecting!!. All the doubt that I had lingering around me disappeared and I was stablized by Lee's lead and confidence that we were doing the right thing. There is no doubt in my mind that the Holy Spirit was monitoring our meeting today, we didn't pray and ask for His assistance to intercede, we didn't ask for His presence but there is no doubt that He was present. He gave me the control and calmness that I have never recalled having in any situation in the past, He gave Lee the cool confidence that he needed to assert inconsistancies with the story that was being described. He took control and comforted us in the decision we had made last week. There is no doubt in my mind that God orchestrated this move, there's no doubt in my mind that all the pieces truly don't fit together from the stories and He made them evident.
So what have I learned? Do I still have doubt and concerning moments? Well, I did for a little while this afternoon but the more I talked to Lee and to a friend I am confiding in, the less the doubt resignated in my mind and soul. Doubt is a powerful thing, it can control a situation in the blink of an eye and put you on the defensive but there's a weapon against it...prayer and God!